This is something, this is everything

I don't really know why I'm so mean to myself, writing posts when I'm drunk/sleepy/hangover. I just really felt like writing now.
I'm always so curious about different experiences of reality and things such as mise en abyme. When a reality is into another reality, which one is true? You just lose the sense of being and you feel like you're touching the sky, the end of the sky as Truman does in that movie. But the point is that there is no such thing as a real sky, when you don't construct it.
I was watching Synecdoche, New York yesterday. I chose to translate it for my translation class; it's a hard work, but I think Charlie Kaufman is the best screenplay writer of all times. He's not only the genius who wrote Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, he's a clever thinker always playing with these figures of speech. Synecdoche is a part pro toto, it's when you use a part of something to describe the whole of it.
This movie is a play-within-a play, it's a whole life spent on a lifelong project which wants to depict life. The main feature in Kaufman's works is that they manage to actually enter your life: they're mind-openers, and you can never get rid of them. You feel like you're in Caden's play.
For example.
I had a dream yesterday. This is something really stupid but the idea is the point. I dreamt that I was supposed to spend my last three months of Erasmus in London. Which is like WTF. At the beginning I was like Yeah, London's cool, but can I just stay in this shitty place? I'm okay here. Really. And I was asking people around me, Can I stay? What do you think? Should I talk to someone?
Then, after a few people, I started to feel some scratches. Something's wrong in here, I said to myself. I was meant to stay here. Right? I was feeling like Caden, when he tears the map of the Synecdoche of Schenecdaty. I struggled with my own subconscious until I fought it, You bitch!
"I cheated myself, like I knew I would".
This is not a weird way of saying how strong I am. I'm just basically saying that everyone should watch Kaufman's films, they're such a trip and such a good entertainment at the same time. He's no Kubrick, no Herzog, no Bergman, but he's not even a Wenders, a Reitman or anyone else.
He doesn't talk about realities, he creates them. As he did with Synecdoche, his greatest and ultimate — in my opinion — piece of art.

— The sun is rising and I should really go to bed. I apologise for the grammar, but still I don't c————